It was not a good start to the day when i got up at 6:30am to go to the gym and libby was really off with me. She said she was annoyed that i hadnt texted her back last night when i went off and that i hadnt eaten. The first point selfish of me but maybe i wanted someone to worry or maybe i just didnt want to get in touch with anyone , im not sure what i was thinking to be honest! So anyway it got a bit better in the gym although weights were v.unproductive as my legs still hurt from the last session.
I got back and the others were on their way out to the ferry but i didnt want to go, am not sure why i think i just wanted to be on my own! I had bought some protein shakes the night before so i had one of those for breakfast and two slices of cheese!
I then just lay on my bed and fell asleep for a couple of hours which was nice, about 12:30 however i decided that i could not lie in bed all day so wandered down to the botanical gardens and slept there in stead! I feel like i have put weight on today for some reason-on my tummy... dont think i can of.. maybe its in my head.. most things are! I took a carrot with me for lunch but have not been hungry all day. I have to make myself have tea though. I have thinking about xmas eve, day and boxing day as the gym wont be open so i must go for a run. I know wen i dont eat much i get the most painful stitches which prevent me from even moving so i must eat before running and drink gatorade for electrolytes and i hope that will work, i walked the route i will take today, round by the opera house and botanical gardens!
Had a missed call off paul about 4:30pm, to be honest i just dont want to talk to him as i have nothing to say i mean if he was that bothered he would have called this morning or at least tried again! Not sure what to do with myself tonight as im pretty sure everyone will be drinking together, might just have a wonder again. We' ll see, havent spoken to anyone today.. its been very quiet, unusual for me!
love jen x